<a href=”https://dailypost.wordpress.com/prompts/cant-stand-me/”>Can’t Stand Me</a>
In response to the Daily Posts prompt:
What do you find more unbearable: watching a video of yourself, or listening to a recording of your voice? Why?
I’m a seriously big guy – broad of shoulder, thick chested, a neck like a short iron rod. My legs muscular and powerful. When fit (which is not all that often over recent times), and if I lost some weight – I would still cut an impressive physique – it was something I spent many years developing, training and playing competitive rugby from the age of 5 through until I was 40.
I like most of my body – although my legs are somewhat shorter than they should be, and I would like my neck to be a little bit longer as well. But overall it’s a good body which has served me well. However, there is one part I don’t like and that is my voice.
My voice is low but soft – but there is no David Beckham syndrome going on here thank you very much. My wife say’s I mutter – but I don’t – its just that I cant seem to generate a lot of power behind my voice. There is actually a medical/physical reason for this:
Blunt Trauma to the Larynx and Trachea: caused through contact sport. So as much as I would want to sound like Brian Blessed or Simon Callow – and as much as my body size warrants it – it ain’t never gong to happen. I’ve lost count of the number of times I’ve been wacked on the Adam’s Apple. It can be bloody painful and can cause lasting damage.
When I try to generate power in my voice – it quickly becomes hoarse and strained. It becomes painful to speak if I try to speak at volume. People often ask me if I have cold because I sound croaky – it is easier to say yes rather than try to explain that I always sound like this. Trying to talk in noisy environments is almost impossible for me – so I try to avoid them.
If you wonder what I sound like – take a listen to this – this is Darren Lockyer a very famous rugby league player who also has suffered Blunt trauma to his larynx – thankfully for me and unfortunately for him his injury was more significant than mine.
So the next time you converse with someone whose voice doesn’t quite match their body – there’s probably a perfectly good reason behind it – and it isn’t a cold!
If you have been affected by blunt trauma to the larynx , or by this story, then please send a donation to my charity – I wish I had a better voice. Which aims to educate spouses and provide loud speakers and amplifiers for ex rugby and rugby league players.